Dear every girl ever,

I know you've reached your hand up towards the second shelf expecting me to be there, I'm sorry. At least I was kind enough to leave you this note:

I would never try to make someone feel a certain way. the best part about being true, and not playing games is to know that you are liked because of who you are. Not because of a certain angle you play, or because you know how to make women want you, but simply because you are a great person. I'm secure enough to know that anything negative someone feels towards me is about them, and has nothing to do with me.

I would never be obsessed with someone. I have a stronger mind than most people can see. My roots are in Christ. Never in a woman. I would never put much of my trust in a connection between myself and any human. That type of thinking leads people to do crazy things.

It's also the idea of ownership that makes people do crazy things. They get angry that their "possession" was taken away. This kind of anger lets you know they never really cared. They just wanted you under their thumb. I know that I will never "own" anyone, nor do I wish to. I only wish for someone who decides to live under God's authority. If I find someone like that, I will know that we have similar principles, which is important.

being strong is why I am crushed every time a relationship is ended, because I rebuild my heart to purity every time it gets crushed. The tears I shed reveal my true strength. For any man can lock his heart away and treat women like they are nothing. It is not a strength, but a weakness. People are afraid to give their heart away because of the pain involved and the damage it is susceptible to when your holding it out there.

I am strong because I know the risks, I know the pain, I feel the fear. But I will give 100% every time. The day that I decide to hold back and treat someone like a fling or a one night romance could be the day that I let the perfect person for me slip through my fingers.

I've come to realise that you don't want someone like me. You would never be able to take what I have to give. At least, not for another few years, when girls start to catch up and realise that the way they think about relationships is screwed up. I picture them all having fatherless kids at that point. Looking for a janitor. Those seem to be the only types that want to have a relationship with me these days.

But I'm no one's plan B. I'm not something cooking on the back burner. I'm not sitting on a shelf. I'm good enough to be more than a girls contingency plan.

so sorry you've found some dust and this letter, but I don't wait. I never will. I never would. Not because you weren't amazing, but because you had your chance. You've had your cake and have eaten it with so many others, I decided that this is the one desert that you've had, but you'll never eat. And for the record:

I taste the best.

~ Jeff